Habits are Hard to Break!

I have a habit.....Actually I have a number of habits but I am only going to speak of one that the Lord has brought to my mind.  I like to make lists.  To-do lists, and "have done" lists,  those that aid in keeping records.  Those that prove that I have been active and busy,  that I exist and have a purpose.

One day as I was adding some things and people's names to my calendar that I had already taken care of and met with, the sweet Holy Spirit whispered....."Why do you write everything you have done down?"   

As I pondered this question with Him, He showed me that it was a type of self-evaluation.    I was validating my existence.  In case anyone asked or saw my calendar they would be able to see that I hadn't been just sitting around all day,  I am busy, my schedule full.  

He gently said to me "Marnie, there is no need.  It does not matter.  I see you, watch you day in and day out,.  your life is mine and your service is to Me.  Put the pen down"

I would like to tell you that I felt immediate relief, but no..... It is hard to break a habit, train a new way of thinking, believe what we cannot see or hear.   

For God says;

Ephesians 2:8-9

Contemporary English Version (CEV)

⁸You were saved by faith in God, who treats us much better than we deserve.  This is God's gift to you, and not anything you have done on your own. ⁹It isn't something you have earned, so there is nothing you can brag about.

I am going to stop my need to validate my existence.  I exist to glorify the Father and to obey His Holy Name.  I am His and He is mine....His banner over me is love.


Rest dear one.....He loves you just as you are.